The Cutest Ruffle Top & My Struggles Lately

This top is one of my favorites lately and I wish I designed it myself.  It's a great color and affordable.  Two combos that I love and I've been trying not to buy too much and focus on my own fall/holiday line.  I told myself I needed to do a closet cleanse before shopping (this has been sooo hard :).  My closet looks like a junkyard with piles and piles of stuff and with my travels this summer I avoided it like it was my job.  This leads to my struggles lately, which in general I am just struggling in opening up about . . . 






My main struggle is balance which I mention quite a bit but lately my motivation is down in general.  I was on such high gear flying back and forth from Mountain View and Chicago and working over 14 hours days that I think I hit a wall.  Yes, I'm glad to be back at home, yes, I love seeing my kids, but I just feel like I'm bad at everything.  Work is overwhelming trying to launch all our new stuff.  Within 3 days of being back in Chicago we did a whole day shoot to showcase over 30 pieces I designed.  (Which I'm still getting through and trying to figure out when it launches on our site.)  My lack of patience with my kids is not good, waking up in the morning with them is a struggle.  My oldest started school, I was dwelling on the fact I missed his whole summer.  The bright light, I spent all weekend doing activities with them, but I still feel a little down.  I'm not getting along with my husband and things have piled up.  The struggles of balancing a marriage, being a mom, working hard, doing social media, blogging, even my dang messy closet . . . I am looking at it and wanting to avoid it all and take a break.  And of course I can't.  

To be honest, I even have FOMO on fashion week.  I was dying to go back this year but there was just no way.  I traveled so much all summer.  And why do I want to add another thing on my plate.  Just seems like things I enjoy are just a little less enjoyable right now.  

I've been missing on this blog a lot. Why? I don't feel like looking at more pictures of myself, I don't feel like writing, I am so unmotivated to do it why would you read it.  I still instagram and share stories, it's a bit easier to and stay connected.  But I can tell even than I'm not so into it.  

So to share with you, my struggles are tiny, I know it, but I still struggle.  Dressing up, designing and putting on makeup makes me "feel" better, but I still struggle.  I get asked so frequently how I do it all.  I don't do it all.  I "struggle" through it all and pictures are just so easy to make it look like everything is fine.  I blogged today because after a week of procrastinating and it being on my list, I told my self that if I wrote this it would check one thing off.  

All in all, I'm fine.  I think I need a week to recoup, take it slower, write my list and check things off one by one until I feel I'm back to my self.  Let's hope this week flies by in a good way and thanks to you for following along with me through good and bad.  

How do you get yourself through times like this? 

6 comments

  1. Good for you! Love your total honesty and struggle story with all of us who can help, who've been there, who totally, wholly get it. Let's grab coffee sometime. Love ya, and support you 200%.
    -Debi

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  2. All struggles are valid no matter the struggle. Sure, someone else has a different struggle but it's theirs, not yours. Your own struggles are meaningful for you. I totally know that feeling of going so hard for so long and then you hit this wall of overwhelm and exhaustion and all these things at once and then life doesn't stop for you and it's super overwhelming. Your children will forgive you. At the end of the day, you're still mommy and they still love you. You're clearly making the most of the time you have with them and I promise they appreciate it, even if they don't say it.

    I set myself rewards with every difficult stretch. These can be as simple as a foot soak with a glass of my favorite wine or some sort of shopping splurge. Maybe a nice dinner or an evening with the family completely unplugged. Whatever you do, make sure you're taking the time to remind yourself that you are okay. It will be okay.

    And remember that you are loved by many. And we're all here for you. Let's get coffee or drinks soon, once you've had a chance to balance out a little more.

    xoxo,
    Dannie
    www.stilefotocibo.com

    P.S. This outfit is insanely adorable.

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  3. I alway love when other moms share their story of struggle too because social media is VERY deceiving and it's not alway real life. Being a working mom is so much hard because we feel the guilt. Just know you are doing great things but also listen to your gut and if that means take some time to slow down, take it. Work will be there when you get back. And that shirt is adorable!!

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  4. It is hard to keep it all in balance! And no one puts more pressure than yourself. Thanks for your honesty in this post. With all your work priorities the past few months have flown by and when a new season arrives, you have no energy for it. The concern is not whether you'll bounce back - but I think it is important to acknowledge and process the whirlwind you've been in! It's been a tough ride for you, mama! And that's ok!

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  5. Oh goodness...you are voicing my very own struggles, Jenn! You are amazing and have accomplished so much despite having a ton on your plate. I'm super proud of you! I think it's great that you are recognizing the need to rest. You need to take care of yourself first before you can take care of those around you :) Let me know if you want to grab a meal again to chat! <3

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  6. You are amazing and have accomplished so much despite having a ton on your plate. i am loving it.

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